PLEASE HELP ME...OR I will DIE!!

[rally]

hi,

Please please please someone help??

Basically, when i used to go to school, i really liked this girl who was 2 years below me, this is in upper school. I did't say anything as i was scared and all the rest. she use to smile at me all the time cos i'm sure she knew i liked her!

I really liked her and i think she knew. After which i saw her at a bus stop once and wanted to talk to her since i though i'd never see her ever again because i had left school. I though it would be my only chance ever! I went up to her and my mind went blank. I just came out with "I really like you" outa the blue!! like a clown!! she just laughed or you could say smiled and said "fuckoff", as like a clown i went up to her in my car!! yes, i'm stupid!! lol

Then i went upp to her again to say "i'm sorry" the next day at the busstop, she said "okay", she said "was it you", i said yes. like a clown i said "i really like you" again!! yeah i know im stupiD!! lol

Then i went up to her agin after a couple of months when she was in her car, i walked up to her and said to her, "can i have your number, i need to talk to you". She said why? I said "just?" She laughted and said "No"!!

this has happened over 3 years ago. I can get her out of my head. I love her to bits, but dnt really knw her, again its crazy but i knw i love her, cos if i dont, then i dnt knw what love is!!

I have asked people who might have knwn her, but everyone says they dnt see her no more, i recently got hold of her number from her cousin brother through facebook, who dosnt know that i like her and he dosnt really knw who i am. I just told him she use to go to same school as me and i wanted to talk to her. Well basiclly i have her number and want to tell her how much i care about her and love her to bits and want to be with her. I think about her 24/7. YEAH I'M CRAZY, i cant help it!! She has the most beautifull smile in the world. Every time i see her she makes me melt!! I havent seen her at all for this last year, or the year before really, and i mis her sooo much!! I guess i'm a weid shit, cos i dint think, and use to drive past her all the time just to see her baby face and gorgeous smile, she probably thinks im wierd too!! i really regret it know, just wish i could turn back time.

I have her number but DON'T know what to say, as when i went up to her about three years ago and asked her for her number she said "NO"!! How should i talk to her, what should i say, i want to text her.

I want to txt her but dont know what to say? And i don't know what to say if she asks me where did i get her number from?

Please someone help, i don't know what to do. I'm dying everyday.